In Memory of John.

[lady_windermere]

I've just listened to Alison Krauss & Union Station playing "It Doesn't Matter". This so reminds me of that turbulent time with first unconsummated love as a teenager.

The innocence, parental and medical (I had depression, John was epileptic, neither of them thought we could cope with the other) disapproval. The pressure making the time together more precious. The sleepless nights before a date, the dreams of being together forever, and the heartbreak when we gave into pressure and didn't see each other. I wrote poems for years afterwards. Well one got published, a teacher saw it and put it in a collection he was making of his students work.

Then a year later, after we broke up, hearing that he had died. He had took a fit in the house when he was on his own and choked. My handsome, artistic, intelligent John was gone. How I wished we had still been together, sure I would have been there to save him, sure that, as John always claimed, just looking at me would halt the fit.

In memory of a wonderful young man, only 17 when he left us in 1976. Sadly missed.

Comments

[twilightofmagic.livejournal.com]

What a lovely memorial for John, and how sad. ::hugs::

[http://users.livejournal.com/woman_of_/]

Thank You! He was such a lovely young man! I wrote a play, which I still have, with him as one of them major characters. {{hugs}}

[aschicca.livejournal.com]

He must have been a beautiful person, it's a shame he left us so young. But it's so good to see he's still alive somehow thanks to you and the way you still remember him.

*big big hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/woman_of_/]

Thank You! I was thinking about him when I heard that song, and had to post an entry to remember him by! {{Hugs}}

[inkingwords.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, I'm so sorry. ::hugs you::

[http://users.livejournal.com/woman_of_/]

I just had to post a little something to remember him by! Thank You for taking time to comment {{Hugs}}

[spankspike.livejournal.com]

Such a tragedy to lose a friend, and even more so when they go so young.

Weren't you lucky to have known such a wonderful person and to have memories that you're obviously still treasuring 30 years later.

*hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/woman_of_/]

Yes, and I will never have to see the older version of my first love! He will always be young. {{Hugs}}

[(Anonymous)]

God, I feel like crying, that's incredibly sad.

All this time and you still remember. *hugs*

[http://users.livejournal.com/woman_of_/]

He was a special person! Think I will always remember him. *snuggles*